I don’t know what I’m doing
Where I’m going to be 5 years
Everyone’s so busy
They seem so full of ideas
People getting married
And my friends having kids
When all I really do is watch movies and drink
I don’t really want to change
When I do I get anxious
So I stay in my flat where nice and quiet
And since getting a cat
I like humans even less
See I’m pretty happy with my furry we friend

But every now and then my hearts starts racing
Like isn’t there something that I’m meant to be doing
Did I forget another date or friend’s birthday
Did I miscommunicate now it’s too late to be saved
What is life if just sit and decay
What mistakes have been made
Oh my God what am I going to do

Nothing
I like nothing
I burnt myself out with parties and overworking
So now I’d quite like to just sit here sulking
Soaking up a series on a streaming production
Yeah go get the covers on the sofa
Few pre-rollies and bottle of vodka
Switch on the TV then a go saunter
To switch off the buzzer so I don’t get bothered
Put on jammy bottoms or some comfy boxers
And like a boxer return to my corner

But then a thought
What to watch on the box
I should turn it off stop and focus on hip-hop
Get tik-Tok and post pictures up on the net
Acting tin-pot will only get that image in heads
So as I’m lying in bed
Well the sofa exact
In a total panic like all my best years past

Ah well not pulling buckets no more
I can’t be bothered with a cypher in this circuit for sure
Now they all want to sell and get their foot in the door
All that kind of stuff that I don’t want to do anymore
You see I kind of achieved
By being this emcee
Met a lot good mates and girls out of my league
Done a lot of good gigs the whole festival scene
The Edinburgh fringe plus one time overseas
It’s no bad mate
Just a shame there’s no cash made
Least I had music when stuck in a bad place

But often comes back and gets too much
I need to write a bit more to stop it bottling up
See without using music my bubble would burst
And I’d have to face the world without having rehearsed
Without having this nurse
This little platform to spurt
Out all my deep feelings or I would be

Okay let the tempo change
I’ve wound myself up maybe here it’ll end
I don’t want to chase a dream
Life aint a nightmare
To be honest mate I’m alright here
And I might write here
Recite my ideas
Shed light on the mic despite my own fears
Least I’m happy being on my own here

Okay Mozi you’re here too
Yeah that’s right